There are things you can't unsee

or "I wish I didn't look after all .....


So I recently read Paul Levinson's blog post review on The Shield. It reminded me of the last episode and how traumatized I was after seeing it. I have always said that there are certain things you can't unsee and that is absolutely true with The Shield. After the finale I thought about it and realized The Shield has had three of the most disturbing scenes I have even seen on TV. The rest I have seen in movies or on the internet. These are things I can never get out of my mind, I think about them with the same emotion as when I first saw them __ years ago. They are so disturbing and powerful that you are changed, permanently, just a little bit.

So here are the top 9 things I have seen that can't be unseen.

1. The Shield - final episode. I don't want to have a spoiler on here so lets just say it's the scene in the episode titled "Family Meeting". I still think of it now and again and get a bit depressed.

2.The Shield - Season 2 (I think Barnstormer?) When Gardoki has his face burned on the stove by Armadillo. I had never seen such a brutal thing actually happen on TV. Usually the guy is saved at the last minute, not scarred for life!!

3. The Shield - Season 3, Riceburner. Tavon and Shane have a huge fight over a lie from Shane's horrible wife. It is a violent, nasty fight with the N-bomb dropped. Mara hits him in the head with an iron and he stumbles out onto the street, dazed and confused. He drives off and is eventually thrown through the windshield of his van after hitting a parked car. The digital filming at first makes the broken glass look like blood splattering onto the street. Words can't quite describe it. There's that feeling in the bottom of my stomach again!!

4. Two girls and a cup - Viral Video - After all the hype I "had" to see it... It is THE single worst thing I have ever seen. DON'T look it up if you haven't seen it. I won't be held responsible.

5. The last scene in "KIDS" - Movie 1995 - Just about the entire movie is disturbing, the use of unknown, young actors makes it that much more creepy. Telly, the main character, is HIV positive and tries to deflower as many young girls as possible without protection. The final scene where a boy takes advantage of a passed out girl who has HIV is just the icing on the cake. Having a teenage daughter myself, this movie shakes me to my core!

6. The rape scene in Leaving Las Vegas - Movie 1995 - When Elisabeth Shue is brutally raped by a bunch of jocks, it made me need to take a shower. The way the scene was shot, so choppy and rage filled, it was the darkest scene in a very dark movie.

7. The Blair Witch Project -Movie 1999 - The movie was mostly lame but the last 15 seconds were very traumatic. I couldn't go into the basement for years without the hair on my neck standing up.

8. Requiem for a Dream - Movie 2000 - The story line with the mother was upsetting, it made me think of my Grandma, and I hoped her life didn't end as lonely as that (and I was glad she didn't lose it like that). The arm amputation, the girlfriend prostituting her self out and being degraded...80% of the movie is so very tragic and sad.

9. A cadaver - Sophomore year in college I took Anatomy and Physiology. We dissected a new (fresh?) female cadaver. I will never forget seeing the chest cut open and then the teacher lifting the skin and breasts to the side like it was just wrapping for the insides. All the muscle and stuff underneath, heart, lungs, liver and intestines just popping out, right there for all to see and smell.